Why I started this blog?

Soooo.... I decided to start this blog. I began dating again in May 2011. After dating for several months I kept joking that "I need to write a blog. You can't make this shit up". lol No one tells you the "rules" of being a widow. Everyone helps with financial advice and asks you out from time to time for lunch to "check on you" to make sure you haven't gone "insane" yet. This is for those widows out there that don't know anyone who has lost their spouse at a young age. I'm not holding back from every thought I have. It may be "nuts" at times and I have done some stupid shit since I have been a widow, but I'm not going to "insult" another widow out there by making my writing "empathy friendly" or "politically correct". This is like my diary. This blog is for those of you who are widowed at a age where you do want to find romance again and don't want to spend the rest of your life alone. It's only been 8 months since I've been dating and it has been horrible. Dating to "find your soul mate" and dating "after you lost your soul mate" is totally different. I don't think I expect a guy to "be" or "act" like my husband but I think I'm expecting the "relationship" to have the same substance. I don't know. It's crazy. If you haven't lost the love of your life...you could never, never understand what this is like. So here goes nothing. I hope it helps someone besides me. :)